New article posted about photography and grief here: http://lostinnocentsorthodox.blogspot.com/2011/12/grieving-through-photographs.html
I need to take a break from blogging for a while. This has been a terribly hard year, many ups and downs. It's not going to be good for me to look at everyone else's pregnancy and baby news on their blogs either. This hurt is running too deep for words. I appreciate all of … Continue reading Another farewell…
May the memory of the infant Andrew be eternal!
God, where do you put this much pain? Are there wells deep enough? How many pieces of your heart can you rip out before it just stops? How do you spend the rest of the day after you bury your baby? What am I supposed to do with this tragedy that has been handed to … Continue reading Unanswerable Questions
It's 5:50 and I can't sleep. I lay in bed and realized this is my last full day to be pregnant (sort of), perhaps ever. I don't want to forget to take a belly picture. I'm terribly nervous about tomorrow. I'm going to write a birth plan that includes all of the things we want … Continue reading Last day
I went in the thrift store Tuesday looking for a basket I could line to put my baby in. I didn't find one. I looked around to see if they had a nice box but they didn't. I went to the store afterward and got a casket and memory box. While I was at the … Continue reading A Christmas Story
I am so humbled by the number of you who have sent cards and letters, emails, left comments, prayed. I feel like there's some sort of misconception that I'm this nice person, a prayerful, holy person, and I'm so definitely not. I joke that I'm so far from being on the bottom rung of the … Continue reading Humility, Love and the Incarnation
It's striking how many metaphors there are for grief. Storms, tossing oceans, valleys, mountains, roller coasters. One line from the Orthodox Church's memorial services keeps coming back to mind: "You who have trod the narrow way of grief..." You who have trod the narrow way of grief; All you who, in life have taken upon … Continue reading Grief